Hmmm…

The story begins with a plan for an outing at one of the waterfall around Gombak. As usual, I asked Persie to come along like the rest of our outing before. It’s kinda small gathering for my ex-schoolmates and I.

We had had a wonderful morning. The green trees, the cool crystal clear water flowing rapidly with the sound of peacefulness. Persie seems to enjoy the moment as well. Eventhough she’s the only person who didn’t dip herself, but I could really understand it. She just recovered from a fever. Plus, I have no prob at all if she didn’t want to join us. He joined me before.

She seems so happy just like myself and the rest of us. Then we kicked off from the waterfall towards OU. She took a nap along the way. And the bad part started.

We went straight to the bowling arcade after half an hour expedition to find an empty space to park. My firends have already book 2 lanes for us. Suprisingly..but I’ve seen it coming…Persie didn’t want to bowl with us. “U are kinda bored not joining us bathing just now, but now u won’t play? U gonna get bored…Everyone just play for fun..”. But she still said NO.

We had 2 games that day. I tried to entertain Persie as her face became bored and bored. “Are u okay?” “U can have a go once in a turn..wanna try?” “Do u want a drink?(3 times asking)”. I bought her a drink and sat next to her and tried to make her at ease.

 Suddenly she said she wanna go for window shopping. I felt so heavy to permit it..but It couldn’t be helped. He seems bored and bored. “Ok”..I said. The she walked away. My friends started asking, “what’s wrong with her..we are truly worried..Did we do something terrible..over??”. My friends are the type who really concern about anyone related to us.

“Nah..I replied. She said she felt dizzy and she’s not into bowling”..well, that is what Persie said when I asked her bout it. Done bowling, I texted her to ask where she was. She supposed to be back as I’ve already informed her that our game was nearly finished.

She said she’s at the MPH. BUt the sound of her voice irritated me. Sounds like she disilike our time of bowl, pissed. I asked her which floor and she just simply said “I don’t know. I don’t know how to get there”. Omar and I separated with the rest to pray. We went to the nearest mall map and searched for MPH.

We hurriedly went there but Persie wasn’t there. I called her again. “I’ve been looking for you..where are you?? Why don’t u wait us here??!”. She simply said, “BATA..cross the road..the new wing”. “We are going to pray and leave…”. “Just go la for your prayer. I’ve done mine..”. I started to piss off and said “ok..do as u like”.

We performed our prayer and texted her to meet us at the nearest autopay above the Jusco where we parked. SHe didn’t reply whether she knows how to get there or whatever. We rushed towards Jusco so she won’t need to wait for us.

When we arrived, she wasn’t there. I called her and she said, “I’m on the way to Jusco”.

“Just walk towards the roof ok”.
“If I know”
“Do you know how to get here?”
“i guess”

What’s wrong with her??Those cold voice. The rains was starting to fall down. We worried if she lost, so we hurriedly ran towards Jusco. Omar searched for her as well. When I called her, she said she’s already at the rooftop. We reached there and there she was with a truly sulking face like we were the wronged one. She didn’t even say..’sorry’ for that. Well of course!!! Course she didn’t think that she made us running like a stupid ones!!!

I asked for the key and the ticket. She didn’t even think to pay for the ticket so we could leave as soon as we met. We drove towards GiANT. I ignored her all the way to find the surau there. I wanted her to feel how idiot if we really concern bout her but she just ignored us.

When we met back at the food court, Persie just left us and went downstairs again. My friends were asking again what happened. They asked me to go and comfort her. They worried if Persie pissed with them. arghhhh..

 I texted her asking to come up and join us for dinner but she said no thanks…I dont have the appetite. I asked her what’s her prob and she replied back saying that she felt like idiot when I didnt treat her well.

OOOhhhh!!! Now u said something bout that. So u know how it feels to be like idiot?? U just care bout yourself huh??your feelings??How about mine?How about how stupid I felt running to find you just now?!!! U complained when I didn’t treat and entertain u. But even if I really care bout u and entertain u as best as I could…u didnt even appreciate that!! U think U appreciate that???Oh..so u think!! I didn’t feel appreciated. I felt stupid trying to make u at ease the whole day when u still just sulked leaving me clueless!!!What do you want me to do?!!!!! How do u want me to treat u!!! Am I not that good towards U??!!! U still think ur action are right??and I’m the wrong one??!!

This is not the first time..U’ve been acting like this everytime my friends and I gathered. U always sulk in fornt of them. THey care about U..concern whether u like them or not. ALways ask me to comfort u which I did!! But I didn’t appreciate it at all!!!! If u dont like them just say it so I dont have to bring u along!! What’s ur problem???!!!!!!!!

Argghhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I felt so pissed!! Am I not good enough towards U huh??!!!

I purposely threat u to ask ur sis come and fetch u..so u would know that I’m really disappointed with U. What do u want??!!! U just left the car when U reached home. Not even thank u..sorry??it’s not in ur vocab at that moment right??!!!!

I don’t understand u….really…U didnt even tried to call me or sms me? Ur ego huh??? Or maye someone guided u to do that??let me sms or call u first..so be it!!! The more silent I had..I’ll start to like the feeling without someone special I need to nurture my love in…The more silence I get..It’d be probably easier to forgetting u!!

Sayonaraaa my K530i

Huwaaaa….huwaaaa!!! Brengsettttt

 U can see my once new handphone in my entry. I wrote there how hard I need to come out with a decision whether to buy it or not. Whether to spend Rm900+ on it or on something else. Whether it worths the money and the shaking hand paying for it or would I just regret spending a fortune of my money for a thing that can emits voice in and out, take pictures and memories and singing lovely songs for me whenever I want..

 Well..I sound like I am or precisely was satisfied with the gadget and the things it offered me wasn’t I. Huuu..but I lost my handphone 3 days ago. It was when I drove my friend to the komuter station, I asked her to put my purse and my handphone in the dashboard while I was on the driver seat. But she might have missed the handphone when her mobile rang and she picked it up while loading out her bag from the car. When I checked the dashboard, only my purse was in there…huuu…

I called her up and asked her whether he put the handphone as well and she said yes. But unfortunately she just thought that she did. I tried to call my mobile using my friend’s. It rang at the first try. So I tried to look everywhere in the car but ended up hopelessly without any sign of it. I tried to ring again my number but this time the operator answered and asked me to call again later…

 I called Lal and told him everything. He said, if the operator is the one answering it, for sure someone has picked it up and threw away the sim card or off the handphone. I drove back to the station and try to ask anyone with a slight sign on their face saying ‘ask me..I think I know where it is’. But none with the sign. I just happened to realize someone, a guy, the stall keeper looking so guilty while I was looking and asking about the handphone. He kept on checking his pocket. But what a silly I am, I didn’t even ask him about the phone.

Lal asked his friend to lend us his previous mobile phone which is barely functioning. He said, after replacing the battery it might work as great as new. But I was thinking of buying a cheap one at the moment and save my money to buy a better one later. But Lal said, it’s just wasting money and asked me to patiently use his friend’s. Luckily my friend lent me her previous phone and it’s way better than Lal’s friend’s…just the keypad for number 9 cannot be used.

 There goes my precious first ever expensive handset which I only managed to treasure her for 3 months before she disappeared without saying goodbye…Huuuuuuu

Part 4

I was having my dinner at the Al-Qais restaurant when my mobile phone vibrating inside my pocket. I took it out and check the new message in the inbox. It was a reply from Persie. We had had this session where everyone wrote down their mobile numbers on the white board so that the class can easily contact us if necessary. But I just got Persie’s number when we were being evaluated by the HSBC representatives on how the lecturers were doing. I asked hers like I asked others’. But getting a reply from her kinda surprised me. Emm..not that surprising actually..=] (here goes the precise instinct of ‘i already knew beforehand she would be mine or not’)

 I was really excited to begin or to continue to be exact our messaging activity. She replied my text using C line which will cost me 20 cent per message. I nearly ran to the nearest store to top-up my C line so I could start messaging her with a cheaper cost..hehe!! But the intention was thwarted when I got grip on myself back.

“Hey, are u being desperate to text with her?”, the inner egoistic-self started to talk me up. Just don’t show her the excitement will ya mate??

So I just texted her back using my M line. A bit costy, but naahhh..it’s just the beginning. But still deep in my heart, nothing special blossomed yet. I just glad she texted me back coz I have a girl on the other line to fill the emptiness. The thoughts were still wandering in my head and kept wandering…

I wasn’t sure how many days after that, I got a text from her, but from an M line. Straight away I felt really great coz myself kept on thinking, “Now, why did she even bother to change to an M line? cheaper cost for a more texts??“. That’s totally wonderful. So we continued our texting moments and talked about so many things.

And then I started to ask Persie a new-step question ; “what would you say if we hang out this weekend?“. Suprisingly she replied, “Ok” and there we were. Our first ‘date’…

Part 3

The class was taking a break. Some of the classmates were sitting at the round table just around the corner outside the classroom. Through the transparent glass wall, they could watch cars passing by and the scorching sun burning the skins of all those pedestrians outside. A group of blind people were being instructed along the special yellow line with patterned bumps on it to guide their way around the busy city.

The conversation seems to be so lively. Topic after topic were discussed among the students from the class. And suddenly I was being targeted as the centre of the conversation;

“I heard U like to watch one of the girl huh?”
“Me? Yaaa…I’m single after all..ehehe”
“Then who do you like or have a crush on?”
“Like I’d tell you all”
“Ohhh come on..At least give us a hint”
“Hmm..A girl I would have a crush on..would be the one whom I would be completely silent when she was around”
“Definitely none of us!!”, A hilarious laughs echoed and fill the air

 The truth is, I never thought of anyone at that moment. None of the students there fit my criteria of a girl I desire. Actually there was one, but she’s married and has already blessed with a child. I admit that I am very picky when it comes to choosing a soul-mate. Of course I like someone gorgeous, beautiful, pretty and cute. See..what a totally display-oriented evaluation. Hey come on. It would be a face U would see the first thing in the morning for more than 20 years. Was it too much asking for one which will make ur day bright??

 How she behave and how’s her attitude is damn important, I agreed. Let makes it this way ; Out of faces of strangers which none of them U don’t even have any clue whether she’s a bad girl or the nice one. What’s the odds? So why not just pick one with a great figure, nice face and just leave the rest to luck about the attitude she possess. You don’t like her attitude, break up with her before the love blossomed or try to accept and improvise it so it would blend nicely with your bad side..It’s that simple for me.

Part 2

I woke early that morning. The first day of the class would be interesting enough to make me me pumped up and warmed up my bike right after the bath. The sound of the bike filling the morning air along with the other housemate’ engines.

The decision made weeks ago to resign the previous job and started to join a class with a purpose of preparing u for a job interview, will result in empty pocket due to the allowance-less of this class. It was a big shot, a big risk..but as kelly clarkson’s song which always humming in my head, “I spread my wings and I learnt how to fly, I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky, Make a wish, take a chance, make a change..and breakaway~~~“

It sounds funny, absurd or anything u could imply about it, but this lyrics was one of the reason I agreed to join the camp and resigned from my job. I tried to breakaway from the fact that I’m a manufactured student with a computer science background, trying to get a job beyond my field of study coz I know I’m suck at it.

I followed the map given earlier by the lecture. Once I saw the landmark, I knew I was in the right place. Other participants, or precisely I would say, students were coming to the rally point with only one hope, to be hired. It’s starting to sound like the Apprentice episode.

When the group have been announced, I was in the same group as Persie, the girl I met, the one sat next to me whom I’ve just known for a brief moment on the bus. Oh..ok.

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The classes started day after day, week after week and finally we were waiting our name to be called and be interviewed by the personnel from the company. During the weeks passed, I’ve known Persie better than the first day we met. I’ve being her team mate during some of the activities in the class. Yet, I never chat with her anything other than the subject. I am rather a shy person in a given ocassion and circumstances.

And then, life played it’s trick on us…only 6 people out of 60 managed to be hired. SOme of us had no chance at all and some of us managed to be placed in a-week-assessment class to get us ready for the 2nd chance..

The money was running out and didn’t even bother to running in back. Shit!! I really need a real job which pays me a dime. And then when the news about the CSR position in S company came across and I decided to have a go!!

Part 1

The busses were waiting for the passengers to hop in and grab their seats. The participants of the Job Camp had already scattered everywhere near the busses but none of them thinking of getting in it. Everyone was waiting for their friends to sit together the whole journey towards home so they could have a long chat about the days they spent during the Job Camp.

Unlike the others, just after I reached the rally point where the bus was waiting, I hurriedly walked towards it and hopped in. I picked an empty seat and sat next to the window. My friend just followed and sit next to me. Minutes later, everyone was departing and grabbing their seats. At that moment, my friend said that he would sit at the back of the bus with the others.

“I’d be better sitting here. I don’t like sitting at the back because it’s bumpy and I might puke sadly if I were to sit there”, I smiled to my friend and saying no to him.

So, the sit next to me is vacant till one girl was looking for a seat. Apparently her other friends had already got their seats and left her alone standing next to my seats.

“Can I sit here?”, she asked me
“yeah..no problem. I won’t do you any harm”, I smiled
“Persie..just sit there..he wants to know you”, my groupmate during the group activity we had days back teasing us.

So she shyly sat next to me with a complete silence. I just smiled at her again and started to turn away from her and trying to get my sleeping-gear 1 so I could sink in a deep nap all the way home. I’m not that haggard after the 4 day-activities, but I prefer sleeping on a bus rather than having a chat especially with someone who sat next to me by an unfortunate event.

In the middle of the journey, I eventually opened my eyes and straighten up my body. I looked at her and started to chat a bit with her.

“What’s the time now? “
“12 noon”
“Ooo..ok.What’s ur name again?”
“Persie”
“Nice to meet U. Call me Draco”
“Nice to meet U too”
“My friend is sitting back there. I don’t like sitting at the back, that’s why I sit here alone. Not that I wanna trap someone like u sitting here and trying to chat with u and asking ur phone number at the end of the journey”, I joked with her and she just smiled at me shyly.

I continue my nap till we reached the destination and disembarked off. We shall meet again during the next class next week.

-to be continue-

An effort to update..daaa

Huu..been a while since my last entry huh? Hehe..don’t blame me my dear blog..I’m a busy woman yes..?? I still trying to figure out how to disable the comment moderation coz honestly I appreciate all of U who have been leaving ur comments here. But, I can sure u that the next day, U might not gonna see ur comment yet due to blog-unvisited-by-the-owner. By leaving them in the awaiting moderation box, it’s kinda not appreciate the comments though..Again, sorry if felt not being appreciated with the comments..GOmenasai!!

 I just got back from a camp organized by the admin. We went to Lumut, Perak and stayed there for about 4 days..Lot of things which unfortunately not my cup of tea have been done. Orinteering with the compas and the map which I admit kinda sucks on it. Crossing the river..swoooshh..flying fox which more like flying Orang Utan or flying Orang dlm Utan..=p n more.

Whenever I grumbled bout it to Anul, he would always say..WTF!! that’s cool gal!! Adventurous!! Well, I’m not like him who really loves all those things. For me, a nap on a rainy afternoon just after the lunch is the total heaven..hehe!! 

Few days bak, before we leaved the college, there was an observation taken place which was observed by one of the guy from the ministry of education. When he was in our class, he  bluntly asked one my colleague why on earth she would always fix her veil and looked so bored in the class. The guy even warned her to really think bout teaching and to quit if she doesn’t even have the passion to teach. It’s true though, most of the people here didn’t come on her/his wills. Only few of us here really aim to be a teacher deep inside their heart. But to most of us, it’s just an option to have a secured job, told by the big brother, asked hardly by the parents and etc. I wonder how we could attend to the children, teach them till they really understand it if we don’t have enough passion to do it.

 Anul always said that even if it’s not meant for me, but I could survive and he really sure the passion would blossomed in my heart day by day. He also said, once u are a teacher…u always a teacher. U are not only get ur salary..ur money, but u earn respects, u earn a pride, u earn a bless from HIM and a pray from ur students. Guess again, Anul’s words melted me to a puddle of a schmaltzy slush~~~. And I started to believe in myself…Jia YUUUU!!

Handphone = where’s my money??

“Aiyaaa..Wa..apasal takleh tekan ke bawah ni..”
“ishhh..nak tekan space pn susah..koman nya hanphone”
“Baling anjing pn dia sapu2 je dahi dia..takde effect tau”

Those are sarcasm words from Anul when he used my handphone or just have a look at it. Yaa..I’m still using the black and white contents edition. Really not colourful and the keypad is already worn out. Berlagak btol Anul..sepak kang!! But yesterday, everything is now different. With my shaking hands, I just bought a new handphone K530i costing me RmX00. Huhu!! Giving away your precious money, and especially that sum of money brought your head to think bout so many things I could purchase with that papers..furniture, shoes, etc???

But Anul managed to shut that thought off by his charming words. Yaa..I agreed. If i were to buy a hp for now, it’s better the one equipped with 3G function so at least 3 years later, u don’t need to change to one when 3G charges as little as 5 cent a minute? who knows.

“unlike me, if I want to use 3G, definitely I need to buy a new one coz mine is just a walkman edition (W810i)”

That’s what Anul said when he asked me to consider the choice whether to buy the 3G one or the same one as him which is cheaper by a 100 bucks. That makes me decided to buy the 3G one. To compare with Anul’s, mine has the 3G function obviously, a bit louder speaker but no ‘mega bass’ function, the camera snap button -  just one fast press (no need to hold for a while) and a 1GB m2 card. Hmm..ok, i’m satisfied even with a certain occasion which leads to unsatisfied feeling as customer. But again, Anul’s words melted the feeling and left me being grateful enuff..

I’ve learnt something during the process of looking for the best deals for my handphone. There was time when Anul try to negotiate a better price but tried to not get too deep in it to avoid the salesperson trapped us to buy from him. But I was not a good help and not even a good actor when it comes to lying to get rid of the salesperson. Again, Anul ‘balun’ I..ehehe..sowi ehh..tak pandai la menipu..kikiiii

This is the handphone which costs me a fortune….Huwaaaa….

Hmm..hopefully I won’t regret buying this expensive gadget. But again and again as Anul said, “once u buy a computer, laptop or handphone..after a while u will regret buying it because tones of new design will be in the market and the one we bought are way cheaper. Hmm..he always right. I hate it..hehe

Raya and the assignment..erghhh~~

Yiehuuu~~~

Whoaa..I’m not that jubilant to begin with..huhu!! By right, I’m still laying lazily with my laptop before me typing things reluctantly while the TV plays all along either with my eyes fixed to it or not, overwhelmed with my mom’s cooking and all the raya cookies. But here I am, back to my Pa’s apartment trying to finish my assignment which were to be submitted this monday. Darnn!!

Due to the assignments..tones of assignment (Anul said I was just exaggerating it), I need to kick home earlier with my sisters. But, the best thing from it, I don’t have to drive..coz my sisters were swapping with each others leaving me napping nicely on the backseat..buckled up..Hehehe!!

Hmm..Raya in my hometown means visiting infinite relatives (my moyang married with 4 wives..so just imagine how many of our relatives). If ever there’s a rule saying U need to visit all your relatives in Hari Raya, my god…I need a month..haha!!. Ok, of course during this gathering with your family the question “When are u getting engaged..married” would be a common one asked either from our own parents our someone else. My sister is the one whom being asked usually because..ya..she’s older than me. But this year..it’s a bit different. My mom started saying that she doesn’t mind if I langkah bendul and engaged first.

Ok..she’s overwhelmed with all those neighbours’ daughters whom getting engaged..married which makes her feeling the only family without anyone engaged as a member. Huwah huwah. This time, my sis answered her saying that I’ve already have a BF. Kikikii..Me? I just stayed silent. I just answered, not enough money (of course la for my BF’s behalf). But my younger sister misunderstood it and said “guys are the one need to have money..not us”. Ahhaha..aiyaa..of course la..but I still feel responsible a bit..kikii..

Last night, I had had my Iftar and then wnet out with Anul..windu la..ehee..he brought me to satay kajang samuri near Bangi area. I withdrawn a sum of money to buy my new handphone which I still thinking of it. Ya looo..having to just give about Rm800 for something..Fusshhh~~~~ (sweating). Then he brought me to Putrajaya for my driving lesson. Anul already adjusted the clutch for me after my last grunting. So, I tried to drive it last night..which I succesfully did it!! Yeaaaa!! He asked me to drive along Putrajaya area till the bridge which passed along some junction and a complete U-turn..yeaaa!!

At the end of the night, he said, “Ok..I’ll give U B+“. Then I asked, “why not A-?“

“Cannot..U did 3 big mistakes. 1, the engine dies 5 times. 2, U shift to 1st gear when it supposed to be 3rd gear having it roared loudly (which he did it too..kiki..) and U drove using 4th gear with a speed of 2nd gear causing Wan Hayati (the car WHT..so he called her Wan Hayati..) coughing so hard when u were panicking and didn’t press the clutch.”

haha..sian la wan hayati that night. SHe suffers a bit. But..yeaaa..I can drive a bit way better after the clutch is fixed. Thanks Lal..hehehe!! This weekend I asked him to bring me out for both days..to recce the HP and hopefully buy one without regretting later..hehe…

Another portion of the money

Hehehe..How can I describe my feeling right now?Hmm..simple..I’m extremely Jubilant!! Happy!! Exuberant!! Any other words which suit it. The other portion of our allowance has just banked-in. ANd the best part is of course it is nearly Hari Raya!! Now, I only need to carefully plan my financial situation which temporarily byk duit..yiehaa!!

 I was planning on buying a new handphone which I intended to do so months ago. But the intention thwarted after I was offered KPLI. I know, that I need to use my own money for couple of months before the allowance comes to the rescue. Hence, it’s just a basic common sense to buy it now after the so-called sacrifice I made earlier isn’t it? HUhu..

I just bought couple of broochs for Hari Raya. Not the expensive ones..As long as it’s nice and gorgeous..doesn’t mean it supposed to be expensive yes?

I’m running through all the assignments which has been assigned to me..Whoaaa..it’s a lot!! Will it be this much when the time comes as a real teacher? Am I equipped enough. I keep on evaluating and try to get grasp on how to handle those delicate will-be-my-students. When U need to be strict, to be soft, to emphatize and symphatize. Being here these months, I try to see how would I be next year..standing before those little eyes, those interested eyes. Can I really educate them till they manage to get the basic knowledge, pursuing their goals, their dreams. Am I suit to do that? Am I good enough??

Still hoping I could get the nearest school possible from my home. Everyone wants that don’t they? U need to have at least two person for each school and not to forget, the school must be within the diameter of i-can-go-there of our lecturers. Now, that might be a bit out of the coverage if I were to choose Putrajaya. Will they come? Will anyone joined me to be placed there? Huuuu….