An effort to update..daaa

Huu..been a while since my last entry huh? Hehe..don’t blame me my dear blog..I’m a busy woman yes..?? I still trying to figure out how to disable the comment moderation coz honestly I appreciate all of U who have been leaving ur comments here. But, I can sure u that the next day, U might not gonna see ur comment yet due to blog-unvisited-by-the-owner. By leaving them in the awaiting moderation box, it’s kinda not appreciate the comments though..Again, sorry if felt not being appreciated with the comments..GOmenasai!!

 I just got back from a camp organized by the admin. We went to Lumut, Perak and stayed there for about 4 days..Lot of things which unfortunately not my cup of tea have been done. Orinteering with the compas and the map which I admit kinda sucks on it. Crossing the river..swoooshh..flying fox which more like flying Orang Utan or flying Orang dlm Utan..=p n more.

Whenever I grumbled bout it to Anul, he would always say..WTF!! that’s cool gal!! Adventurous!! Well, I’m not like him who really loves all those things. For me, a nap on a rainy afternoon just after the lunch is the total heaven..hehe!! 

Few days bak, before we leaved the college, there was an observation taken place which was observed by one of the guy from the ministry of education. When he was in our class, he  bluntly asked one my colleague why on earth she would always fix her veil and looked so bored in the class. The guy even warned her to really think bout teaching and to quit if she doesn’t even have the passion to teach. It’s true though, most of the people here didn’t come on her/his wills. Only few of us here really aim to be a teacher deep inside their heart. But to most of us, it’s just an option to have a secured job, told by the big brother, asked hardly by the parents and etc. I wonder how we could attend to the children, teach them till they really understand it if we don’t have enough passion to do it.

 Anul always said that even if it’s not meant for me, but I could survive and he really sure the passion would blossomed in my heart day by day. He also said, once u are a teacher…u always a teacher. U are not only get ur salary..ur money, but u earn respects, u earn a pride, u earn a bless from HIM and a pray from ur students. Guess again, Anul’s words melted me to a puddle of a schmaltzy slush~~~. And I started to believe in myself…Jia YUUUU!!

Another portion of the money

Hehehe..How can I describe my feeling right now?Hmm..simple..I’m extremely Jubilant!! Happy!! Exuberant!! Any other words which suit it. The other portion of our allowance has just banked-in. ANd the best part is of course it is nearly Hari Raya!! Now, I only need to carefully plan my financial situation which temporarily byk duit..yiehaa!!

 I was planning on buying a new handphone which I intended to do so months ago. But the intention thwarted after I was offered KPLI. I know, that I need to use my own money for couple of months before the allowance comes to the rescue. Hence, it’s just a basic common sense to buy it now after the so-called sacrifice I made earlier isn’t it? HUhu..

I just bought couple of broochs for Hari Raya. Not the expensive ones..As long as it’s nice and gorgeous..doesn’t mean it supposed to be expensive yes?

I’m running through all the assignments which has been assigned to me..Whoaaa..it’s a lot!! Will it be this much when the time comes as a real teacher? Am I equipped enough. I keep on evaluating and try to get grasp on how to handle those delicate will-be-my-students. When U need to be strict, to be soft, to emphatize and symphatize. Being here these months, I try to see how would I be next year..standing before those little eyes, those interested eyes. Can I really educate them till they manage to get the basic knowledge, pursuing their goals, their dreams. Am I suit to do that? Am I good enough??

Still hoping I could get the nearest school possible from my home. Everyone wants that don’t they? U need to have at least two person for each school and not to forget, the school must be within the diameter of i-can-go-there of our lecturers. Now, that might be a bit out of the coverage if I were to choose Putrajaya. Will they come? Will anyone joined me to be placed there? Huuuu….